My therapist said I don’t have to remember everything to heal from it. That my mind blocked it out as a way of self protection.
I have a nagging feeling. I feeling of unease.
It is as if there is maybe a monster under the bed. But maybe there is not. It could pop out at any moment.
There is a memory. Right under the surface. I know it will come. Waiting for it to come creates large amounts of anxiety.
It is a great thought that I would not actually have to remember everything to heal from it. But what if I remember anyway.
What happens when the block is lifted and the monster comes out?
He’s coming for me, that I know. I just don’t know when. But I feel him creeping ever closer. A hand is coming out from under the bed….I’m just waiting to see whose face it is.