Poetry

I called on you,

When I should have called on God. 

Man’s  rod and your staff are not what I need.

I see myself,

So pathetic,

As I plead to you,

“Please hear me.”

I was mistaken.

You cannot lead.

Your blessing,

Your acceptance,

So foolish to seek.

The disgust 

I have for my longing.

I can only shake my head

In disappointment of myself.

I can only bow my head 

In hopes for you I’ve held.

I cannot look at my lips that have spoken.

Nor my mouth that has called out repeatedly.

The effort.

The time.

The waste.

In the desire to be loved

By 

The 

Wrong 

One.

I feel

Ashamed.

I have 

Now

knelt before God.

I have asked to be led. 

I should have called upon Him

First

And not THEM

Instead.

I call upon the Lord

Now.

I stand in His fate.

It is never to late.

He forgives

My mistake.

His light

Surrounds.

I am reminded

When I beg man

I am always left 

Face down

On the ground.

I pray for strength 

Now

To let them go.

To use my breath

For guidance,

Only

To God.

To uplift

My soul.

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