This gave me chills, and tears, and left me in a daze, and left me with a profound beating heart and sense of love for this writer and her child. I can only imagine reliving this or writing these words could be anything but agonizing. I am hoping other parents will read this blogand connect to the strength and love within it
Not sure what’s worse – your child’s death or knowing that she/he has just a couple of more hours to live.
Ayden passed away on a Friday afternoon. The same morning, when his BP went down drastically low, it was kinda understood that he’s not going to make it. Doctors still did whatever they could. Around 9-10 am, his surgeon very hesitantly told us that he just has 1 or 2 hours left. I swallowed a big lump down my throat.
I didn’t try to think.
I took my mother, sister and a close friend inside the ICU to let them see him alive for one last time.
I called important family members, so they have time to take the next available flight/bus/train whatever.
I started packing our things in the hospital room. Threw my lactation supplements in the bin. changed my clothes. Called a friend to come and…
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