This writing is part of SoCS word prompt limb. https://lindaghill.com/2017/07/28/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-july-2917/
My husband and I spontaneously went to the beach on Wednesday. He took some pictures of me on the beach. When I first looked at them I focused on one limb or another. This one is atrophied. This one is not anything like it used to be. Then I stopped. I looked at myself and remembered what I felt in that moment. I can feel what I felt in that moment RIGHT NOW.
I AM FREE.
I AM AT PEACE.
I AM WHOLE.
I AM LOVED.
I AM SAFE.
I stood on the beach holding my husband’s hand feeling nothing but peace as he and I looked out over the waves. A storm was coming. Our feet were barely in the water. My husband asked how much longer I could stand. Forever I thought. I will stand here forever. I had no thoughts rumbling around in my head. I looked at the love of my life then I looked out over the ocean and thought, at this one moment, I am free.
Here are the pictures he took of me on the beach. I am no longer looking at limbs. I am looking into my eyes and celebrating that the body that has a muscle disease still had the strength to stand there! (My husband did have to carry me about 150 yards to get there….but still…I stood in my victorious moment). These moments are victories. I am me. I am who I was meant to be. I am one with all of me. I accept myself. I love all of myself.