Gratitude 

We have survived hurricane Irma. My sweet owl has survived. The sweet pregnant (still pregnant) squirrel also survived. We lost power Sunday. We were blessed with cooler weather than I think has ever existed in Florida at this time of year, for the first 3 days. I prepped pretty well. Had water to flush the toilets (we are on a well and it takes power to get water). Had water for hand washing. Water for bathing. Ice for the food. Charged phones and wheelchair. Well…..it all flopped. It got hot, the ice melted, there was no ice in town, no gas in town, no water in town. We went to a friend’s house to get water for the toilets. Ended up charging the phone in the car in the driveway just to cool off. 

Knowing the hurricane was coming gave me a lot of helplessness, a lot of trigger responses, and a great amount of stress. On my walks though, it’s as if people were just sent to ease my mind. Each person I passed asked if I was okay and needed anything. 

I’d like to share some pictures of the damage around us, even though our yard was spared. 


*picture of me in wheelchair taken by husband

THE most shocking/amazing/ moment: My daughter and I went to sit outside after the storm had passed. Two neighbors drove up in their truck and raked our yard and sidewalk and driveway. Here is a picture of the work they did. 


One of these men has recovered from cancer. One has just recovered from open heart surgery. My daughter and I were both brought to tears. They had no power either and we were the third house they had helped clean! These men then stopped right there and prayed for OUR health. I mean….. who does this?!!!! These two men. GIFTS. I have such gratitude for them. They gave us hope and lifted our spirits. Such an act of kindness. True down to the core pure soul GOOD men. Wow. Just wow. 

My daughter and I stayed up until the wee hours of the morning talking INSTEAD of being on social media, about everything under the sun. We all played UNO. My daughter won. She always has. We have played board games since she was 2 and she ALWAYS WINS! 

I still went for my mindful walks. This big beautiful massive dog stopped to give me kisses. Stopped. As in put both feet out and would not move. Came over and licked my legs like he knew that I was hurting so badly. I saw him twice on two seperate walked and asked if I could take his picture. I wanted to show my daughter THIS IS WHAT I WANT!!! Pouring water into the toilets for that amount of days hurt my body I think more than anything has in a long time. This dog somehow knew. He nuzzled, then kissed my legs, then kissed all over my face. I felt good in my soul like I used to feel when my sweet Jess was with me. 

My scooter parked behind my car while we sat and cooled off and charged our phone.


Then I had a panic last night…what about my sweet prairie animals!!!! So I drove there. Oh my gosh after the prairie the power lines were down with trees right on top of them throughout that whole neighborhood. 


And here are all my sweet babies that survived the storm. I know they are overexposed and super blurry but this was the best I could do in a rush 🙂 see mama squirrel came back a little wetter than she was before. My husband also saw her in the yard. Others were at the farm other than the random moth that I thought was super cool!


Then the flowers. I had a mindful walk where I looked for all things that stood strong through the winds. 


I even overcame my most dreaded stupid fear of grasshoppers. My daughter laughed and watched me as I took deep breaths and took that grasshoppers picture. 

*therapybits. The flowers were orange and yellow striped, One was a group of white flowers with white streamers, one was a red rose bud, and the other an open pink rose. The grasshopper still makes me want to vomit so I will not describe him 🙂 pregnant mama squirrel was on the window sill and the farm animal were the miniature horse, the donkey, and both goats. I mostly just pet and loved on the horse because I love her so much. 
I discovered reading by candle light is not easy. 


We decided a camping lantern was more logical. 

Two more things. I drove out last night trying to connect to someone’s wifi who had a generator and wifi so I could let those who reached out to me know that I was ok. I am sooooooo grateful to those bloggers/friends who emailed and messaged me. I felt so loved. It meant so much to me!!!!I found no wifi.  While I was out I saw this, I thought was a bird, I stopped. It was a moth. It looked like an angel moth. It took me a long time to get her out of the road. Here is a picture of her little angel wings. She flew and flittered all over my legs and face and arms. What a beautiful thing. I hope she is ok. I got her into the grass. 

I was then blessed by THE GREATEST SKY I HAVE EVER SEEN. 

NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I SEEN A SKY LIKE THIS. IT BROUGHT ME TO TEARS LIKE THOSE THINGS THAT REACH BEYOND JUST THE SURFACE OF THE HEART BUT HIT THE CORE OF YOUR BEING AND REMIND YOU THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE. IT WAS AN ORANGE AND BLUE I’VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE. I JUST SAT AND LOOKED. MY IPAD WAS AT 4%. I WAS ABLE TO TO TAKE 2 PICTURES. THEN I DIDN’T USE MY IPAD UNTIL TONIGHT WHEN IT CHARGED AGAIN TO SEND THIS POST TO MY DEAR FRIENDS. LOOK AT THIS SKY AND FEEL WORTHY. For therapy bits and other visually challenged friends, who cannot see it…know you are worthy and not alone. 


I actually gave thanks. I was hot. My body hurt. My daughter was feverish. I gave thanks because we have a lot to be thankful for. Soon after the power came on. Call it a coincidence, but I don’t believe in those. 

18 thoughts on “Gratitude 

  1. Bethany
    I am so thankful you are all ok and with very little damage. God is wonderful. I am so glad that it means there is so much more work for you to do on this earth. I am glad for the dog who knew you were hurting and the little angel moth who showed you that angels are watching over you.
    God bless !
    Susie

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      • It is so scary to hear the wind and rain. We barricaded our front door with plastic and my husband’s huge heavy punching bag filled with sand to hope to keep the water from coming in and it worked. But those in texas. It is heartbreaking to see those pictures. Just now there is flooding happening in florida. The rivers are flooding and you can just se roofs. It is unreal. Hope your husband’s sister is still doing ok

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  2. I am grateful…that you and your family are OK. And the squirrel and the owl too and that you finally have power! I thought about you every single day, checking for posts, wondering how you were doing.

    I have a handful of ‘friends’ on FB, mostly people I know from high school who moved down there so I was checking on what was going on down there that way. I know different areas were effected at different levels.

    Love these pics. I always want to say something about each one.

    Those men who swept your driveway, I thought of angels. They were angels. That dog, what a sweetheart and an angel as well. That is so amazing how he insisted on seeing you and came over to you like that. Dr. Doolittle maybe, but my mind goes to St. Francis this time. (Especially in reference to saving the moth. I have tears in my eyes about the dog and how he responded to you. He looks like an Irish Wolfhound. (?)

    It’s cute to see the squirrel come back to the same spot. There were a couple squirrels that came up to our porch for peanuts. They would get so close and even stopped being afraid of the cat. Ozzy would usually just sit there and watch them scurry up to the door. I miss them.

    The horse and the donkey: That pic made me smile so much, the way they are running to greet you. That’s just awesome. Reminds me of a couple little kids all excited to see a special relative they adore.

    The flower shots are beautiful and I especially love the streamers on the white one. And of course the sky pics, wow!

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  3. Bethany thank you, thank you. I just read your other post and mentioned I was glad you were able to post and were OK. I am late getting to all the email and blogs that piled up on me. I am very sorry you had to go through what you did and glad your daughter is also OK. I admit I hear the news and worried the worse might be. We still have friends without power and have reached out to them to do all we can. Those people who helped clean up your yard are great beings. Hugs

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