29 thoughts on “Florida alligator

      • My therapist said she found it VERY VERY odd that it triggered nothing. So she deemed my fight or flight broken!!!! She said I react to things that most don’t and the things most are afraid of I have no reaction to

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      • Hm, interesting. I mean it could be that you grew up around them? Idk, I’m no therapist. Fight or flight broken? What do you think about that? I mean freeze is a response and you’ve written enough about that so I know that’s a response of yours. Have you read Pete Walker’s book on Complex PTSD. He writes about four responses: fight, flight, freeze and fawn. They are all part of the same mechanism for survival. Idk, seems ‘broken’ might be inaccurate.

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      • She said it was a severe freeze but it lacked emotion. Whereas usually when I freeze I feel a deep fear or dissociation.
        It may not have anything to do with PTSD at all. It may just be that I don’t give a flying flip about alligators and they don’t scare me! How about lets tell THAT to the therapist!!!

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      • Yeah let’s. Lol…I think that could be true. I mean there are people out there who are just fearless of wildlife…think Steve Irwin.

        I always thought lack of emotion in a freeze response was dissociation. For me I equate numbing with dissociation. But that’s me. I’m sure there are other ways of dissociating.

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      • Well I Had a year of therapy with this woman and I can barely remember a thing. I probably need to brush up on the topic since I have it and all!!!!
        Maybe I am just a steve irwin kind of person.

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      • I had such a crush on him when he was first on TV. Lol.

        If you want to read about it more I recommend the book by Pete Walker. He actually has two books. Both are good. And then there’s always Richard Grannon on Youtube. He’s super informative and isn’t afraid to change his viewpoints on things when he learns more. But if not, I totally understand. I have fatigue from all the reading and learning I’ve done. It’s exhausting and sometimes it’s good to just observe myself because no two of us experience this shit in the same way.

        I am completely disenchanted with therapy and therapists. My trust of any sort of therapist being a good one to help me heal is completely vanished. I’m not even looking for a therapist.

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      • i’m so tired of reading and trying to learn about myself. BUT some books I really do connect with and it helps me understand why i react the way i do and feel more normal about it.
        I’m not looking for a therapist either.
        When i’m back in reading mode i willl for sure get the book though

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      • Oh how i want a pill!!
        The seizure pill is so cool. I mean here i am having seizure after seizure adn i take a pill that is like a sugar pill. No side affects but the seizures poof gone. I want that for everything! The muscle disease, the ptsd, all of it

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      • So many have awful side affects. And if it has one, i get it. But this was just like a miracle pill. Why can’t there be more miracle pills.
        Maybe if this doctor that is studying my blood now finds the mutation causing this disease there will be a pill for that. I can only hope. I need my body to just HOLD OUT!!!!

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      • That would be so great to find a fix for that muscle disease. More miracle pills are much needed for many things. Most pharmaceuticals have side effects. It sucks. Even herbs and natural remedies can have them too.

        Speaking of pills, I just wrote a poem. Not so much about a pill but the mention of pills is in there. Would you feel like reading it.

        Warning though, it’s not a happy poem. I have had a bad night. Speaker dude was really loud tonight and I had a melt down…you mentioned explosive anger earlier…well, yeah. That was me earlier tonight.

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      • I tried to save a cow. We had shit nights. I will read your poem. Thank you for telling me so I could go read it. I still look at your snow. It’s calming.
        And yes totally right. Some of the herbals are just as bad with side affects as meds !

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      • I just read the post about the cow. My gosh, I hope you are OK. I know that sounds ridiculous. I know you are in pain. I’m so sorry but also you are a saint Francis (of Assisi).

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      • That is freaking sweet! Thank you!!!
        I hope she is ok. I have no idea. I watched her for a long time and it looked like her back right leg was broken.
        I’m exhausted from crying and from walking. But the idea of her being alone. I just hope the vet got there soon after I left. I waited an hour so I can only hope

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      • Correction: I’d fight if he got me but I would like to believe I’d be gone too quickly. I remember learning about the differences in alligators and crocs in school but still get them mixed up. I would not know the difference seeing them separately. A teacher told us that one runs really fast on land and the other not so much. Are alligators fast runners?

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      • The other thing is I have my husband right next to me and my scooter. Realistically my husband said I could just get off my scooter and the scooter would be between me and the alligator. He was sunning though. They can run as fast as humans can.

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      • I wondered that when he said it. I think they grab a part of you and how they kill you is by drowning your doing the spin underwater kind of thing from what I have read.
        Everytime I go out there I think these parents are INSANE (yeah I know aren’t supposed to say that but…) they just let their kids run down the paths and near the alligators. It’s just stupid. One day something bad will happen and it could be prevented if they put fencing up or something

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